Cratera #15 - Weakness moment (love will disappear)

Once in a while, I have a weakness moment. That's when I miss you. I miss your voice, your smile, your touch, your company, your jokes... That's when I stop and think if you ever think of me, even for a little moment. That's when I break my struggle to forget you and to "delete" you from my life. It's hard, really hard. I don't know if I should regret for hadn't gave you that kiss when the opportunity showed up. I just know that at that moment, I felt I shouldn't - once you were not ok, the other you were not alone anymore. I don't know if you ever felt something stronger than friendship for me. Maybe you did, maybe you didn't.
You ran away when I told you I love you. I knew you didn't feel the same but I was uncapable to hide it for long. You made me shake, and then you dissapointed me. And at that moment I knew I had to forget you. Even though my love was strong, even though I had to prentend you weren't important anymore. The memories will stay but maybe you won't. Seeing you every single day is the worst thing that's happening to me right now. My heart stops when we look in each others eyes. I'm lost. I don't know what you feel or what you want to do.

I wanna try but I feel it would be worst for me. I don't know if you want to tell me something. I've decided to tell you and now I have to live with it. If we're meant to be, it'll happen. Some day, some place, some time. But "It takes two. 'I love you' to 'I love you too'. "

- I (still) love you.

"I wish I cross my arms, and cross your mind."